Monday, August 28, 2006
listening to: air con.
feeling: exposed.
does anybody want to give me a hug? please?there are usually days in the life of an overreactive high school brat where she feels, well to put it simply; like crap. today has been one of those days for me. add in a dash of outcast, a sprig of doubt, few tears and you have my big bundle of todays emotions, topped off with a pretty little red bow.
of course with this comes the few people who you find matter the most and who make you feel that maybe there
is some happiness and you aren't
that useless. funnily enough, sometimes these people can be the most unexpected and you can learn so much and find out things you never knew, or refused to see. it's also great to have your favourite class in the schedule of the day, a.k.a - art. especially after the discovery of a huge box of spray cans.
wooopeeee~why am i feeling like shit? i don't know but i bet it's for some stupid teenage reason and i'll totally forget that it ever happened in a weeks time and then we can all go back to being our usual fake, bitchy, judgemental selves and pretend that our lives are
soooooOoooOooOo hard.
*rolls eyes*haha okay maybe i'm just being unfair, most likely actually. but let me have my peace of mind for this moment. hrmph. but to be truthful, none of these emotions matter much to me anymore - i've detached myself from all messy human emotions and my only goal is education, get a job, have a nice life, die happy-ish. or something like that.. i have yet to decide. and i've just managed to make myself like some cold-hearted fish.
ooops.okay, now that
that really weird part of the blog entry is over, and by the way, i want to point out that it had no meaning and i don't even know what the hell it was about, we can get to more important stuff:
fucked up nails. my index nail has a rough tip which is just begging to be picked and bitten at and shorn down - must. resist.urge. AAAAAAH. and this is why nail files are a blessing. (:
okay, i'm going to sit on my ict chair and grumble to myself til the teacher comes over and sends me to the nurse for attempts to chew through the wires of the computer monitor so i may be able to electrocute myself using the bottle of water that i'm replacing today's lunch with.
deep.s - all i need is love. this blog makes no sense to me. really. and someone forgot my bag today. grr. you all suck. boo.