Thursday, April 13, 2006

feeling: lethargic.
listening to: mark's music.

so for those of you lucky enough to view the blog i posted up and then deleted an hour later last night, then you will know why i was feeling omfgsodownandkillmenownonotreally yesterday.
haha, i found a temporary solution for making me feel better though: ben&jerrys ice-cream! thus todays entry is dedicated to: ben&jerry, the miracle workers.

i went out and brought me a pint of ben&jerrys ice cream. it was a tough decision deciding between the chocolate cookie dough - an all time favourite for me, the butterpecan - another weakness of mine, newyorksuperchunkychocolate or something along those lines which sounded so appealing and finally the chocolatefudgebrownie - because well, hey! it said brownie! enough said there.

then it got me thinking of all those other flavours that weren't there and luckily brunei doesn't have all of them or i would have been stuck infront of the deepfreezer of supasave for hours. frozen and still deciding which to choose. besides, my mom was about to whack me over the head for annoying her with my "ohmyfudgeygoodness, which one to choose? mom, can i have them all? mom. i don't know which to get because they all sound so good. mom, i really am stuck here. mom, can you help me choose? mom. mom. mo--" and so on.

right, so im currently in ict and as usual, slagging off. hahah, when am i not? ;p cristina's shown me her amazing photos of her eyecandy of a neighbour, hamilton or something like that. he's droolworthy, i admit.

"hi, my name is dian and its been officially five months and thirteen days since i've dated a member of the opposite sex. i think im officially over the obsessio--well heeey there, mister. how you doin'?"

hahaha, so the boys in my ict class have decided to uh, well.. examine their legs and if you were to walk into this room right now, amid the cackles and gaming noises, you would hear "no, but my legs are better. hey, leave my legs alone!" and so on. its very gay. but whatever makes them happy, right?

haha, today before chemistry, cynthia and i decided to do something "smart" and tie our shoelaces together. then after stumbling all over school, we made margaret tie her shoelaces to ours too so now there were three connected people. obviously it was extremely hard to move all over the place but with dedication, teamwork, a lot of giggling and stumbline, we managed to walk as one. or.. not. anyway, then the bell rang and we found that cynthia and i couldn't untie our joined shoelaces, so after lots of hard tries, broken nails [mostly mine] and laughing, we decided to just cut cynthias shoelace.

so, during chem, i drew cute little pictures of cones, applepies and candycanes because its my little inside joke with those two. ;p you know us girls, what with our numerous inside jokes and all.

tomorrow is the first oliver performance and unfortunately, i've found out that i have to miss both because of my ever-looming deadlines for coursework and the entire functionwhatever's i have. i feel so guilty for having to miss it and im very pissed off since i was gonna laugh at them. dratttttt. sorry, peoples. shniffs.

i doubt i'll be going online much anymore because of all the work i have to do. if you do see me online, i most likely won't be even anywhere near the computer because knowing me, i'd have probably walked off and am stuffing my face whilst doing work. either that or im going to be too too busy to talk for a long time so yep, thats just a forewarning.



uh, for him, im sorry it wasnt the best goodbye but i don't do well with byes and all that. so being me, i'll just say it on here, thats if you even still read this.

anyway, thankyou for everything and for being you and for helping me be me. i know its been a hard couple of past weeks and im sorry neither one of us talked much or tried to solve our problems and caused this to happen. i just want you to be happy and please cheer up. you've got her to make you happy now, and just don't make the same mistakes. ok? i'll always be here but just not as much as before. and just very well hidden in a way. ;p

[only contact me in major emergencies, cow. hehe. you should have deleted everything, anyway. ;) but yes, like a last resort sort of thing because.. well, you know its the end. imagine it as a wild card, a one last favour sort of thing.]

so, you've got the whole world ahead of you and thanks for ever being my friend because, to be honest, those are hard to come by everyday&now. just surround yourself with those you love and who make you happy and always try to maintain the relationships you have with them. don''t give up and don't ever forget who you truly are. i hope you'll make great [and obviously] right choices in the future and even if not, learn from those you didn't.

there's so much more i'd like to say but it'd be too personal and i somehow can't word it or even form sentences with what i want to say. fuck, i don't even know what i want to say. its a wholejumbledup mess, much like our emotions in a blender type thing. shaken, not stirred. gaha, anyways just.. thankyou. ...and bye.




ok, im going to internet surf and daydream about the most intruiging things such as my princess scrunchie. and wires. lots and lots of wires. i can'ttt waittt for lunch. my stomach is like a bottomless pit. im so effing hungry and i want japanese. hrm, friday, that shall be. oh and soon i shall blog on the amazing self-taught coconut cutting skill story. but thats for another time when i have nothing to talk about and just want to fill up space.

ooh. i created an amazing poem during a er, very productive [?] maths lesson that i shall share with you all because you're cooooo'.