Tuesday, February 14, 2006
listening to: ever the same by rob thomas.
okay
this is just an ego-rant. if you do not want to be reading me talk about me and being self centered as my ever so lovely sister put it oh so bluntly, then carry on till the next paragraph:so we had valentines day today. and even though i was one of the girls who recieved one of the most roses in secondary... i still hate it. the
evil looks from other girls as i passed by with the bunch. .
not nice. the embarassment that comes with getting them given to you? i can live without it. when i was in a younger grade; i always would see the older girls carrying round their huge amounts of roses and wish that i would have that happen to me.. and now that
i've become one of them.. ergh. i regret that wish. i mean yes, i loved the thought and caring it means and actually realising that people cared enough about me enough to give me something.. its a wonderful feeling. but please, just give me an empty locker to place them in so other girls dont see, which unfortunately i didnt have because i share mine with
cynthia and ours is full up with books. i also feel bad for all the girls who didnt get one or anything at all. having all those roses...
i still feel alone. i dont know why. maybe im just f
ucked up. okay. . nevermind.
anyways the most special rose to me was from
jon. hrhrhr, it was
amazingly sweet and he even stuck a note in my locker that said "loved by
jon" gahaha, it was
so thoughtful and caring.. i'm going to treat him to lunch/dinner at gadong for it. (: ...now. if only the boy would speak to me more. pfffft. hehe. oh and of course i can't forget the roses from all my
wonderfulfantasticbananaramawhammabrilliantastic friends, which ruled as well. and erm. thanks to my secret admirers, whoever you guys are? keke.
okay enough of that. now onto the
more important business...
Happy Buttdae my
wonderful,
pornstar-esque,
beautiful,
excellent,
magnificent,
miraculous,
breathtaking and
full-of-surprises bestfriend,
margaret!!!!!!
much lovey love and kissy kisses and huggy hugs. hrhrhr. you are beautiful and i love you for the little things you do, like random notes on my science notes and just the weird things you say everyday. you are 5
teeeeeen! dontcha feel
old? if so..
dont!!! there's still so many more wondeful things to experience like
sex driving your
own car, being able to walk into a club and order a cocktail and
not be kicked out, being able to see an "r-rated" movie.. though thats already possible here in lil ol` brunei and making your first ever paycheque. hehe i hope you make the most of them and wish you so much
goddaaamn luck.
other that all that.. school was okay. not much happened. erm. yeh.
shit i have
too much homework. coursework actually and no time to do any of it. siigh* and im tired. gah. okays byebyeeee~
xoxo*
dee_